Life ain't always beautiful...

...sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down
It can break your heart...

But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise...

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine...

Life ain't always beautiful
...but it's a beautiful ride.


~Gary Allen, Life Ain't Always Beautiful

This is my motto lately.


Lately I find myself just worn out. Tired. Stressed. Overwhelmed. It just seems like there isn't enough time in one day. week. month.

But then I really stop and think about it - I realize it really isn't that bad.

I have always been able to get it together in order to get done what needs to be done. Call me a procrastinator. Call me lazy. Call me crazy. But I do better when I put something off until it can't wait any longer.

This is what I am doing now.


I have tons of work things to do. I have a 7 a.m. meeting tomorrow. And another one Friday morning. I have paperwork to do that needs to be turned in. I have a messy classroom that desperately needs to be organized. It seems like every time I have time to do it...something else comes up. Usually in the form of a meeting or just something more urgent.

I am glad to say that the main source of my irritation & stress has been removed. I didn't even realize how much stress I felt every day. Friday - I had to really think hard to remember why I decided to wanted to do this in the first place. And that's a sad thing to have to do. So imagine my relief to no longer have this person in my life. So I guess I'll have to eat my own words... "It'll be okay. Sunny days are ahead" And I don't mind eating my own words. Especially when they are nice words...


So for now...I guess busy is good. I'm reining in the overwhelmed feelings and taking one thing at a time. I'll get it done.

I'm letting go of the stressed out feelings. They're not worth hanging on to.

I'm reining in the tired. I'll sleep this weekend.

Gotta love the end/beginning of a nine weeks. [Oh... that should be written in the sarcastic font...just FYI]

In other news - our Girls Beach Getaway Weekend Fall '09 was awesome! It was really a good time to: Get away. Vent. Chill out. Shop. Eat at new restaurants (We heart Bob!). Get flipped off by people who thought I was driving too slow {I know right. Me. Driving too slow?!? WTF. } (excuuuuuse me though!! We got separated and I didn't know where we were going so we had to wait for Pam to catch up - that's alright though... it makes for a nice little inside joke now...). And of course watch Twilight. (Duh *rolls eyes*- there were people there who had only seen it once or twice...) We even got to play Wheel of Fortune b/c the WoF Bus is traveling the country and happened to be at the Coastal Grand Mall auditioning for the show. Since it is apparently Melissa's life-long DREAM to be on WoF [who knew?!?]- we stayed out there for 3 hours with fingers crossed that she would be picked to go up on the stage. No luck. But it was still fun.



By hour 3- I was so FREAKING cold I was cuddling with little old ladies and jumping around and screaming and WOOO HOOO-ing over lame hats and pictures of Pat and Vanna just to keep the blood circulating and warm. No alcohol involved. Good times. Srsly. [not sarcastic]

And in other AWESOME news: 9, count 'em ... 9. MORE. DAYS!!! Oh you know what I'm talking about. I can't believe it!!!

Sorry no pics though. I somehow didn't have my memory card in the camera and V hasn't shared the pics yet.

So all in all, my motto is pretty self explanatory. I'm working on the negative. Today was already better than yesterday. Tomorrow will be even better.